What should I smoke today?

What should I smoke today?
What shall I spark today?

Dancing beneath the skies
on a lonely Saturday night.
And even though I know
this is not the way it should have been,
I’m still standing by the same old lamp post,
by the times of the setting sun
when our voices could live on forever.

I find that your gaze
is colder than the winds
But your eyes are still a magical moonshine.
The smoke fogs our memories
and it takes me towards the light,
In its essence I realize
the stubborn essence of life.

Then sparks the second joint
Another memory blissfully dies.


~ R.I.P Memory :P ~

Zenith of Malefice

Written on a lonely rikshaw ride to home at 1 in the morning. Idea picked up by negative vibes and general relationship negativity :P


Lost my way in the search of an autumn
A broken man’s refuge
He sits within his subtle embrace
With sorrow clinging to his edges

Her wicked smile screams a flurry of hate
Worn thin by time
But fierce nonetheless
Crushed in the enigma
A rush of iniquitous emotions

Innocent smiles turn to sadistic pleasure
Bringing tears to his eyes
Forgetting the advice
They both are getting lost

Look at who you are
Look at what you’ve become
A reflection of me

Stay clear from the light
It burns clear in its revealing might
One reflection lost forever – their souls perished together
Sudden distress at her sight

Absolute scorn in this despair
They hide together from the truth either can’t bear.
Glistening arrogance and the zenith of malefice.

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If only I wish I could honestly tell a few people why and for who I wrote a particular song. ease the burden. feel the flaws.

Under Your Mask

The night is nearing
Still yearning for more
With pale stones for my grave
A shattered ending
Is clearing up my head

Her words so far from the truth
Each and every lie
Indecisive wounds scatter my thoughts
A painful gift wrapped in ebony
She falls in my eyes
So below
A love that equals blasphemy

The end of our perfect world
Feed on my grief
Friction between our shallow hearts
Never to be the same

No more innocence from my side
We gaze into each other’s eyes
And witness our own demise

Beyond this world if you follow me
No compassion will you ever feel
Beyond the words that are drowning me
You expect to be so real, such a lie.

Bodies intertwined, no caring in this world
We’ve come to recognize our fall
In a world so evil as yours
Lust can hardly be a sin
How long will it last?
A symphony of loss
Keeping aside the pains
A tyrant’s misgivings
Our shadows still moving
How long will it last?

There will be no more innocence from my side
Not naïve anymore to your empty heart
We gaze into each other’s eyes
Sum up and end these ruthless ties.

Bloody Sickness

A fucked up feeling
Rising in the chest
Distant hopes
Move out and call to me.

And maybe when
The feeling subsides
I’ll realize why
All this ever happened.

The shadows stalk
They never speak their mind
We slowly rot in our shells
An empty minds’ decay.

Heavier
Deeper
Into oblivion
Waking the dead
Among the survivors
Yet not one of them
Only One with the sufferers

Echo my screams and my desires
Bind me with your light – my blight
Cursed with the venom’s tales
Asphyxiated in secondary priorities.

We slowly rot in our shells
As empty minds decay.

Words by AJ.

Moments of Black

A belief finds me
It sets me free
You embrace me
Now I’m free

Solitude convinces me
To stay content
While the winter winds moan
Calling me back

With an evil thought
Vulnerable moments return
Like a plague it sets the morning trees afire
A deadly nightshade unto the moon
Spreading its disease in the wild

Red eye reflections
As witnessed by the trees
Twisted intentions
Moulded for me

With your pain surrounding
You see through its fog
And recognize the flame
Deep down the hunger is satisfied
Then back again

Holding my creations now
Am I not responsible?
Deaf ears lend no hearing
And I’ll never voice my griefs again
My solitude will never end
And with you I cut my ties
Just to tease the alibis

Words by AJ.

Withdrawal

The voices in my head
I want to talk it out
Won’t you be there when the pain subsides?
On cloud 9 when time flies by

Rise in the name of the wicked
Looking forward to a better day
By my side, isolation is kept at bay
Plunging into a paradise lost
Pulling out what was left inside

Won’t you be there now?
Tainted hearts beneath the darkness
So shallow
Uncertainties touched
My strings plucked
My soul drained

Creeping into my veins I feel…
Violent verses drag me to your death as foreseen
Overwhelming emotions dismiss your thoughts
Riding on the belief that it matters

Lingering in this empty world
This bleak scenario
This shattered land
This never ending day

As I now
Wake up in your arms
There is a change
The distant shores don’t seem that far away.

Words by AJ.
Written for and dedicated to the Angel of Light. <3